This time I am writing my thoughts down directly on my blog. I used to write them in my diary first, but not this time. This time I want my thoughts to be completely raw, not composed in any structure of poetry and prose; this time, I am making an exception to all the blog posts that I have written on my blog since 2010.
Yes, so today I feel like I want to die. I've always been an advocate of happiness--who always pursued happiness with pride--and always made efforts to make everyone else happy. I always believed that happiness is an inside job, and I always took an inspirational stand when it came to happiness and positivity.
But, this so-called, so-perceived 'young and bright spirit of positivity' is now tired of fighting, tired of dealing with all the negativity; yep now this spirit is completely exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually just simply exhausted. Exhausted. Crying. Don't know now how to continue fighting. What strategy to use to deal with the negative stuff. I applied all strategies, nothing is really working out. I am tired and done.
I really can't continue anymore without a divine intervention, a miracle. And that is my only hope now. The only hope to continue my life is an unexpected, unforeseen and upcoming miracle. Angels, I am tired. Hear my silent screams. Please help me.
Yes, so today I feel like I want to die. I've always been an advocate of happiness--who always pursued happiness with pride--and always made efforts to make everyone else happy. I always believed that happiness is an inside job, and I always took an inspirational stand when it came to happiness and positivity.
But, this so-called, so-perceived 'young and bright spirit of positivity' is now tired of fighting, tired of dealing with all the negativity; yep now this spirit is completely exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually just simply exhausted. Exhausted. Crying. Don't know now how to continue fighting. What strategy to use to deal with the negative stuff. I applied all strategies, nothing is really working out. I am tired and done.
I really can't continue anymore without a divine intervention, a miracle. And that is my only hope now. The only hope to continue my life is an unexpected, unforeseen and upcoming miracle. Angels, I am tired. Hear my silent screams. Please help me.
