Dear Darkness

Dear Darkness

I want you to kiss me

Come on baby, kiss me hard

I am not afraid of you anymore

Even though you made me run a lot

Dear Darkness

Come into me

And bite my soul

Let me wrap myself around you

And sink in you

So you can swallow me whole.

Dear Darkness

I know you're inside me

I am yours

And you are mine

Come on, let's work together

And light up the dark night with stars,

In a way that's pure and divine

Dear Darkness

I always thought of you as bad and unnecessary

But now I know

You're just as powerful as light

When the world tries to hurt me

You arise from within me

And you give me the strength to fight

Dear Darkness

You are my strength

You are my power

My stem and branches are strong

Only because I grew from deep dark roots

Embedded in soil that was far too dark.

Dear Darkness

Come dance with me

Let me hold you tight

I am your yin

You are my yang

Come touch me

And let's turn this into an eternal romance

Dear Darkness

When I'm asleep at night

Don't forget to kiss my lips

And I won't mind if you decide to

Slide your hand down my hips

For now, I've learnt to make love

And I'm no longer afraid of the dark.

Because I know that only through darkness

Angels of strength are created

That's how they learn to conquer the night

And that's how they turn into angels of light.

Copyright © Upasana Goyal 2019

I gotta get through

I gotta get through,
Yes, I gotta get through,
There is no way over or under,
I gotta fly through,
Like an eagle in the thunder.

I gotta get through,
I gotta rise and be free,
I know I can do it,
That's what my heart is screaming,
Along with every part of me.

I gotta get through,
I am finally free to fly,
I won't look back now,
Yes, I will learn to say goodbye.

I gotta get through,
My heart holds the hope that
Someday you will see,
How much I've loved you,
So you can love yourself just as much,
Even though you're not here for me,
It is my heart you've touched.

I gotta get through,
But in my dreams,
I shall dance with you,
And I will always pray that,
You too get through,
Everything you're going through.

I will get through,
And so will you,
I am not giving up,
On that belief any day.

Copyright © Upasana Goyal 2019

Picking up the pace

When we pick up the pace, do we ever stop to wonder, what is it that we are seeking? What is it that we are looking for? What is it that drives us? That makes us want to drive faster than usual?

We are born and raised in a fear and anxiety based society where speed that is the production per unit time equals productivity and efficiency. Sure, the quality of our productions do matter, but delayed better quality productions are a no match for faster less quality productions. Whether you like it or not, that is the dark side of our fast food culture.

Speed matters more now. The pizza must arrive quickly, even if it isn't as well-cooked as the second pizza which could have arrived with a maximum top up of 15 minutes.

We have so much pressure in our society to achieve this in our 20s, to achieve that in our 30s, to already have accomplished certain things by 40. 

Why?

Why do we value pace over the quality of our lives?

Let's consider a hypothetical example of a person A.

If person A becomes a millionaire at 25, you'll read about them in Forbes magazine and they will be appreciated more for achieving all of that at a young age. The glamour and the fame will surely be a dream come true for them, but what if they have a bad mental health? What if they are depressed? What if they are lonely in their personal lives and secretly wishing to give away all their material success so they can find the time and opportunity to get married, have kids and continue their life cycle in a 'normal' way?

 If the same person decides to not launch their product/service at 25, and decide to do at 52 because they want to spend their life doing more research on it while normally continuing with their life cycle, they just  'might' end up developing a finer quality of product/service that may serve the society for a longer period of time than the product/service they created at 25, and they *might* just have a better mental health, but since they aren't young anymore, they wouldn't receive the same glamour and attention from the media than they would have at 25 (even if the product/service is better and a longer lasting one). And most importantly, before they even accomplish anything, they will be bullied by our society for their whole lives for lacking behind in terms of their pace of accomplishments with respect to their age.

So, why have we created a society that values pace over mental health? Pace over happiness, peace and a good standard of living?

Why? Why? Why?

Think about it.

--Upasana Goyal Diaries

Fail

There is a calmness within darkness,
A moment of eternal peace within death,
Something attractive about a shadow,
Because to light it adds so much depth.

Life is always transitory,
But stillness is equally necessary,
Because if you don't pause to see your dark side,
You'll never be able to know yourself,
And from it you'll always want to escape or hide.

You don't really understand,
Until you look into your eyes,
That life exists in duality,
There is always a darker shade,
That exists with the colour white.

Sometimes we need to take a break,
A hand to hold, someone to hug,
And that is totally okay.
Sometimes we fall hard,
Fail to achieve our biggest dreams,
Sometimes we will fail,
We will fail every single moment, every single day,
And that is totally okay.

That's what life is,
It's never meant to be perfect,
Those who have never failed have never enough tried.
But if we want to go to greater heights,
We must appreciate the depressing side of this rollercoaster ride.
As is not our accomplishments that make us successful,
Because accomplishments can fade and be forgotten,
It is our failures,
Because they play the greatest role in building our character.
And a stronger character helps us to learn how to change the game,
To get up and build a taller empire when life falls apart and we lose our sane.

So it is time to stop resisting,
It is time to surrender,
Yes, get on your knees,
And bow down to failure,
Show some gratitude to your greatest teacher.
But that doesn't mean,
That you shouldn't try to get up again,
Get up and try again another day,
Who knows if the 3000th time is the time,
When you finally get your way.

And when your ship finally sails,
Don't forget to inspire someone else to fail.

--Thank you.