My Daily Journal#2: EVERY KNIGHT NEEDS A SWORD!

SOMETHING'S MISSING, BUT WHAT?

Yes. She has decided to become her own knight. But something is stopping her. Something is holding her back. No. It isn't weakness. It isn't any circumstance. It isn't any person. It isn't any particular thing.

So what is it then? She couldn't know. She knows, deep inside, she is strong. She knows she is powerful. But for some reason, she isn't able to display or implement that powerful version of herself.

She knows, she is a complete woman. But something is missing. Somewhat like a magnificent jigsaw puzzle, yet missing one piece.

 There is an uneasiness. A sense of dissatisfaction. She went on a mission to search for the root cause of that feeling. She searched, searched and searched for that one reason of her trouble. She talked to people, tried to introspect and to seek the answers at different moments. But nothing happened. Moments came when she felt so upset that she just hid herself under her blanket and cried, listened to loud music, or scribbled on paper and just blindly waited for some sense to dawn upon her.

She thinks about it, and she wonders, BESIDES good spirit, will power and strength to fight, what does a knight really need? It does dawn upon her.

EVERY KNIGHT NEEDS A SWORD. YOU CANNOT FIGHT WITHOUT A SWORD.

You don't need that literally, NO. But what that means is that your fight is incomplete without a MEDIUM that would allow you to defend yourself from all the negativity, discouragement and the obstacles that is offered to you by the world, as well as your own inner self.

You might be capable enough when it comes to your fighting skills. But you cannot fight without always having something dependable with you. Something that will regularly give you an opportunity, a purpose to fight. Something you can use to defend yourself when you have to knock down the enemy. (And 'enemy' refers to any negative feeling, person or situation you have to deal with).Something that will give you a regular boost of self confidence merely by its presence. Some physical, intellectual or emotional capability or power that you can USE as a FUEL to make you keep going. 

For some people, that sword is reputation. For others, it is money, and for some the sword is just the love of their family or friends.

But all the above mentioned examples of swords are irrelevant. Because they come and disappear with time. These are the sort of things that you CANNOT depend upon in the long run.

So what are the actual ones?

KNOWLEDGE. Skill. Thinking. Beliefs.Your potential. Your mind. Your body. Anything. Anything limited to you and only you. Anything that makes you an unique individual, who you actually are proud to be. Anything real enough to help you fight your problems. Every fighter has their own different kind of sword and that is something he/she has to find on their own.

She needs that kind of a sword too. She couldn't possibly be a Knight without that. It is hard. But she is willing to do anything to complete the puzzle. She is determined to find it, earn it, possess it. She just has to do it this time!